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    Political rant.

      As all Malaysians know, the election is just around the corner. You could see legion of flags from different parties everywhere. Just a few weeks ago, i saw this uncle planting an opposition flag in front of our Prime Minister’s house in Putrajaya in the middle of the night only to be waking up the next day to see…

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    Three miserable hours.

    I am writing this from the hospital room – confined in between these pink walls and diseases, on this uncomfortable sofa bed that I begin to despise next to my mother. It is a couple of hours before midnight and the lights are out, I could hear a faint sound of the nurse alarm that would go off every now…

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    Life & Death And A Little Update.

    I have been rather occupied with insurmountable responsibilities for the past couple of weeks. I have been driving my mother to and fro the hospital and next week, she will be warded for her upcoming surgery. Nothing major, i hope. Without pretence, i despise being in the hospital. The space reeks of antiseptic smell that reminds me of life and…

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    Au revoir, 2017

    This time last year, i remember being at this precise spot, curled up in my bed, knowing deep in my heart that this year would be an onerous one. I remember telling my mom this, “Something tells me that i have to equip myself for funerals.” A part of me knew it was going to be filled with sadness and…

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    Losing a light.

    I am writing this with a red and blotchy face and squinty eyes from all the crying i have been doing since two days ago. My love, my heart, my soul, or as you’d like to call it, my ‘cat’, went missing a few days ago and this morning, i woke up to the news that he is home but…

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    Twenty-five

    In precisely a couple of hours time, i will turn twenty-five. Twenty-bloody-five. Unlike many other years before, this time, the absence of excitement seems rather profound. I used to be that girl who would grin from ear to ear at the thought of turning a year old. Old enough to drive, old enough to go to the cinema to see…